The Judicial Crisis May 12, 2007

           Light

                                               Shadows~
Sardar Mohkim Khan

The lack of time
And lack of breaths
Dying thoughts
And confined breadths
The length of all
And so does height
I climb and walk
yet no sign of Light~

 

I walk a countless miles (yet more)
And all around I see
The crying faces
The broken souls
Begging for Life
That can be whole
And not an answer to all the prayers

In darkened Light, lurk
Shadows of despair
And yet no answer comes
And not a smile stitched
I passby a countless teary eyes
And the rivers of sorrows; bridged~

Some call themselves masters
And some pretend to know it all
Many know nothing of Life but
It rises and its falls~

——————–

I fear not darkness
But search for Light
For darkness is it’s absence;
Which itself is undefined~

The wars that have been waged
The terror that through time has raged
Havoc all around
Life runs,
When Death lurks around
No reason to greet
With a smile,
A person strange
Nor time to lend
To age old friends
Coccooned within ourselves
Are we?
Unknown to Mind
To the Soul
The Heart is~

Random paths
Chosen
And puzzled
Words said
We are all followed
By all that we have led~

The brutality of today..the clash of egos..and then this beautiful poem by a very sensitive poet! Hail the conscience! and many thanks to my friend Sardar Mohkim Khan

guess who’s back in blogging action May 1, 2007

*yayy*

my blog’s back after a friggin 5 months

pakistani servers are weird…anyway…i dont have much tiem to blog…have lots of updates….but here’s the bulletin for the time being:

• semester almost over. ends in a week….projects still pending! i submit my last one on Thursday!
• finals start Monday….and i have a really spread out schedule…so hopefully I’ll get lots of studying done
• i leave for Saudi on the 16th hopefully…going for just 10 days..to get my iqama paper work in order
• get back end may, start with my summer course *calculus…which i conveniently dropped last year*
• still haven’t got an internship…then again..I’m not the only one…about 90% of my batch *including the top 10%* don’t have jobs to their name….

and in other news: ADP had a great gig that i missed once again…courtesy of the 80’s themed farewell dinner at IBA* which was a resounding FLOP and a tribute to the 8 people in asad khalil’s life…yeesh! *i mean fine your the BASC (Business Administration Students Club…think of it as a student council) VP but hello, public servant, can u PLEASE stop harping about your friends, how you won in the elections, and how generally you and the rest of your outcast friends are ALL that..no one gives a crap!*

find gig reviews, and links to the gggrrrreeaaat Aunty Disco Project on my sidebar

today just happens to be Labour Day..and its a public holiday in Pakistan…its ironic that the white collared people get to enjoy this holiday, but the true laborers: the farmers in the rural areas, the domestic help, the drivers, the construction workers….all of them are still working!

weird dream of tonite December 22, 2006

since im getting a lot of sleep , im dreaming aaj kal…last night’s dream was weird..i was at the orbit campus…where sidrat and naveen *of all people* were sitting and gossiping under a tree…so i went up to sid and sat down next to her…and asked her why she was looking for me…so she’s like…i actually took something from u and didnt return it…but i dont think u missed it much…so i asked her, what was it…and she takes out a *very thin* sheet of paper w/ words on it..its a spelling list…with absurd words like *eat* and *onomatopaiea*…and i remember laughing and telling her..i dont need this!! u can keep it hon!

*end of absurd dream*

any dream interpreters out there? would really want to know what this nonsense means..hehe

Mmmmmmmmmm November 10, 2006

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You’re frozen
When your heart’s not open

You’re so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You’re broken
When your heart’s not open

Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we’d never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key

Now there’s no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken

Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You’re frozen
When your heart’s not open

Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we’d never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You’re frozen
When your heart’s not open

Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we’d never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key

Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we’d never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key

If I could melt your heart

i’ve never been in awe of madonna…at least i wasnt when i first saw/heard this song…i remember the video was all the rage cz she used henna…and mannnn i loved those designs…but then again…i love henna no matter what!

rediscovered my love for this song after a long long time…when i found it on a friend’s iPod…and have been listening to it over and over since then…its dark,romantic, and it puts out quite a thought….

*you only see what ur eyes want to see…*

according to her being self centered means that ur frozen…if thats the case then every other person u meet is frozen…have people been so accustomed to this selfish ass licking attitude that they’ve forgotten what real warmth is? that they brush off real warmth calling it *fake*…isnt this negative conditioning of our generation to be told that all that matters in life is how much u earn…and the only way u can climb the ladder is to go around buttering up the people in power…people who like to hear praise because they themselves think that their achievements are inadequate unless someone comes and compliments or commends them…like dr mahnaz said…we’re all slaves and yet controllers of the status quo…we think we’re superior and yet we’re the ones subject to our whims,wants and desires…no matter how powerful our influential one becomes..i guess at the end of the day its about bringing urself to life…even if that means on relying on someone else’s opinion of u

my thoughts as i put them down may seem *disconnected*,*philosophical*, *fake*, and just another *sentimental rant* triggered by a song…but i know that these thoughts cross our minds…everyone’s mind…and i guess if a person is not thinking along these lines s/he has either already attained *self-actualization* or is too drugged by the material world to talk to his/her conscience

at the end of the day…arent we all victims…arent we all *frozen*?

ho hum..as random as ever! October 17, 2006

hmmm

its almost been a week and i havent blogged…what have i been busy with? i have absolutely NOOOO idea

typically when i get home from university i head to the kitchen…work for iftar there..nap for an hour…wake up for iftar…and then jst help around the house i know i havent been sleeping..cant really bring myself to study this semester for some reason! so what HAVE i been upto this week…*contemplates*

i know i slept REALLY late on saturday nite..was watching this documentary on national geographic about how south americans cross into the US…was depressing really…people get mauled and killed after they leave their families…they WALK for most of the way and are obviously undocumented…

erm…and i know i watched lage raho munnabhai sumwhere during tht time…cute movie..just like the first part…comedy with a cause! although i think the whole MAHATMA GANDHI thing has been blown out of proportion, i agree tht he was really different in his problemsolving approach…but it only works on people with a conscience…difficult breed in todays time when children are brought up to be ruthles insensitive and self serving

also watched this documentary tht mullah waqar very graciously gave me about the misconceptions regarding the hudood ordinance…i didnt have much interest in the issue in the first place..primarily because i see no reason to laws being debated in a country like pakistan where one can only PRAY for enforcement! so its nothing new if old laws are being twisted around by the people in power to exploit the underlings of society… if we revise the laws, im sure the corrupt legal system will ensure tht the interests of the powerful are served

the image they show of the blindfolded lady is so ironic..where on the one hand its supposed to symbolize tht all are equal, it also shows that often, even laws turn a blind eye to justice

*sighs*

wht else

had another one of those rediscovery and self improvement talks with lili…talking to her is sooo invigorating! tht woman makes one think!! and sorta read over sardar’s piece…but then decided tht i was too tired to actually sit down n read it with concentration…so im going to do tht soon!

songs..which remind me tht im craving listening to nazar by ADP…talal is being an ass and making me jealous cz he gets to listen to it before i do *grumbles*..r u listening al fatah!

oh and sid has been a sweetheart and has added me to her friends list on her blog..*yayy*..now if only the tech idiot i am could learn how to put friends up on blogs! and im whining again al fatah, cz u havent added me to urs yet ..hehe

ummmmmmmmm….my msn is acting really *GAY in the words of dj tal * rite now..so im logging in logging out…having random conversations with the issues gang…honestly…technology really tests my patience! especially when it has the word LIVE in its name it is anything BUT that

on the agenda for the next couple of days:

iftar with the batch: which has been delayed so many times now tht its not even funny anymore…was initially supposed to be after the elections.. a sob event for the losers tht is bba5 …so tht we could mourn not getting those 20 odd votes….and tht was wayyyy before ramadan…i was supposed to coordinate with murtaza abbas *aka don w/ decieving looks ;P*…and i never really got down to doing tht till ramadan happened..*arent i the procrastinator*…so we decided it would be iftar…then we got down to convincing people to go for ifatr..out of the blue murtaza told everyone tht we’re going for dinner on monday…since it was the 21st of ramadan people bailed out…so we decided okie..wednesday should be it ..iftar bas khatam!…but its ammar’s mom’s birthday, n we cant really have the thing without our failed politician so its been pushed to thursday..and im NOT taking any crap excuses now…ive been txting and retxting plans like crazy listening to ppl whine about the place, the money…*grumbles*..i cant be an event manager…i’d end up sobbing in a corner cz people CANT be happy!

sending out seminar invites: got the sexiest guest list today…and wht made me happiest was to see ahmed mustafa haq’s name…really miss him! the one funloving carefree cheetah on campus…has officially become the hot corporate with THE voice tht he was destined to be..im sure just as carefree, an funloving and CHEETAH as before here..wreaking havoc at the indigo office!

sending out the article to cK: yes i promise i will update it and send it to u

going n harrassing the tailor to gimmme my clooottthhheeesss…n harrassing my brother into taking me for mehndi on chand raat..hhe

studying for the hourlies! *yipes* hourlies n 3 reports due right after eid…plus the seminar and interviews for societies and *scream!*

oh and next blog shd be on cricket..wanted to talk abt it today..but i think this is long enough..and too many fonts!

i already have too many ppl telling me tht my blogs are too long *screws up nose*

oh and sarah jaannuuuuu…u made my dayyyyyy!!! ur comments cheered me up sooooooo much *hugs*…love u!

now the rest of u silent readers…comment!